ORIGINAL POEM: LEFT UNSAID

Left Unsaid by Kenny Davis

I’d like to apologize for my actions, of late.
The shameful way I acted towards you that I hate.

People say to show interest is to, “Say how you feel.”
As painful as it is, that my love to you, lacked a certain appeal.

Little did I know that the words “I love you” were better left unsaid.
From the moment I said those words, “What was going through my head?”

Telling you the truth, “Was it the right thing?” in question
The painful answer has led to my truly learning my lesson

I now know that these feeling are better held in discretion
No longer capable of showing such nonsense like love and affection

I realize telling you how I felt was a failed attempt
From the pain, the hurt, my heart was not exempt

All of this I saw my love for you as genuine and honest.
But now I know when asked, “Do I love you?” I know to remain modest

Denying my heart, denying myself
Lying to your face and lying to everyone else

You asked “How could I have these feeling when I don’t know you?”
You’re right! I should have kept quiet. I was a damn fool.

When I said, “I love you.” I asked myself, “What did I say?”
But from this point on I’ll never make that mistake

What I know now is that I can’t trust you with my heart
To trust you to covet it, to love it, instead of tear it apart

To you, for my actions, I apologize.
To myself, for making my heart believe I could ever look into your eyes

I apologize to myself for believing I could ever hold you in my arms
Pouring my heart out did less good than harm

Instead of my heart I will follow my instincts, follow my gut
Next time I run into those words, those feelings, I know to keep my mouth shut

To furiously avoid my heart from shedding any more tears
I shall keep it locked and closed for its love, no one deserves to hear. © June 2011 k.davis